Losing a loved one is a difficult thing to process.  No matter how expected or unexpected it is it hits hard and often leaves us with unanswered questions.

It has been a few years since the loss of my last living grandparent.  At the time my grandmother was feeble and seemed worse for wear every single day, but none-the-less it was a tough loss for the entire family.  You often don’t realize, that one person is who holds the family together until it’s too late.  Then you’re left scrounging at the pieces to pull things back together as a changed family unit.

It’s a change in life that we all dread, and don’t know what to do with ourselves until after it happens.  No one around you can say anything to make you feel better, but everyone tries to show their support.  That is all anyone can do, show you that they care about how you’re doing, dealing with one of the hardest things in life.

Knowing these final moments will be the last.

Flashing through all the memories from the past.

Remembering all that ever made you smile.

Thinking what it would be like to have a long while.

Wishing there were more moments to make.

Finding more in life to take.

Regretting some things you didn’t do.

Wanting them now that this life is through.

Tears fill your eyes as it’s time to go.

Somehow through the commotion you just know.

Letting go now, everything seems to slow.

The people left around, their tears begin to flow.

The world around you fades away.

Mourning the loss of a loved ones last day.