Today for me is about catching up. Catching up from where I still want to be to where I am today. Over the last few weeks, I’ve experienced a range of emotions that I had previously started to think were speculative ideals of something that most people don’t experience.
Over the course of the next few days I will be posting a few extra times to get caught up to current emotions and I hope you all join me for the journey. Here’s where I was just a few short days ago.
I’m a nervous wreck, but she’ll never know.
I keep my exterior steady, just so.
Inside, I’m a mess, torn and tattered.
I hide so well, that she has my mind scattered.
Anxiously, with her, I’m always stealing glances.
Hoping beyond hope, that I’ll find my chances.
I can’t tell if she notices, maybe I hide it well.
But with her sometimes I just can’t tell.
I want to hold her and kiss her every minute.
I play it cool, on my emotions I sit.
Under this exterior, I’m an excitable child.
But I try to pretend she’s not driving me wild.
When my moment comes, I go for a kiss.
Her soft, sweet lips pull me deeper into this.