Some things make me feel like I age too quickly. Missed opportunities that I now feel too old to take advantage of, or things that passed me by when I was younger and just never came back around.
Hesitation and inaction, the sins of an unaware man. Not knowing what possibilities could have been ahead down the path I was already on, or just plain being afraid to change. As a young man fear got the better of me more than once.
As I age I often wonder about the things that could have been. If I had just made a change at this point of that, where I would be now instead of here. It doesn’t deter me, and I know that there is more that lies ahead that will be much better still, but I still wonder.
In my heart she stays the same,
But she’s long gone, and I’m to blame.
All alone here I long to hold her,
But I just keep growing older.
In my mind I still hold her tight,
But there’s no way to make it right.
There’s all these things I could have told her,
And here I just keep growing older.
In my dreams she haunts me still,
But her vision in my waking eyes won’t fill.
What I would give to just behold her,
But still I just keep growing older.
From all my worrying and hesitating,
I now just keep growing older, waiting.